Monday, May 22, 2017

My Suicide Attempt After Leaving Scientology

My YouTube video about my suicide attempt.

Hey Everyone,

I just wanted to share with you how grateful I am that I have all of you in my life. I am so happy to I have my YouTube subscribers and other Scientology watchers who support me and show me so much love. I don't know many friends or other "wogs" who understand the after effects of leaving Scientology and what you go through once you start reclaiming your life again on the outside. So many people write to me everyday and I feel so much love from you all. Thank you! I appreciate every single one of you.

The video speaks for itself. I wanted to share my story with you about losing myself and my identity after leaving Scientology. It wasn't easy to leave and have to re-establish my life. I identified 100% as a Scientologist who was going up The Bridge to Total Freedom. That was a stable thing I had in my life. I always knew if I had a problem that I could always turn to Scientology. Once I left, I didn't know where to turn. I had no faith and I had nowhere to turn.

What if I took my life? What if I ended it all in Las Vegas? If you are suicidal or feeling that way, I know it doesn't seem like it now, but life will get better for you. I'm not in a much better place now than I was then, but I have experienced so much in my life that I wouldn't change it for a world. It shaped me into the person I am today. Only recently have I started to find some joy and zest in life. It's not an overnight process. Find someone you trust to talk to and enlist in a great therapist to give you tools to cope with life. I promise it will help you!

I was going to fully type out my suicide story, but I don't want to dwell on the past. I want to look forward to the future. It's triggering and hard for me to get back into that mindset over and over again. I hope you all understand!



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